4 weeks old

Today Ethan is 4 weeks old...in some ways it has been the longest 4 weeks of my life and in others it is the fastest 4 weeks ever.  We are getting settled into life with a baby and I have to say that Kevin and I make a pretty good team.  Kevin's a great dad and always willing to help out in any way he can.  The past two weeks haven't brought much change, but things are constantly getting easier.  Ethan still usually sleeps for one 3-5 hour stretch and then wakes up for a bit and goes back to bed for another 2-3 hours.  The most recent development is to wake up around 6 and then go back to bed at 9am for a couple hour nap.  As I sit here typing this he is on his second nap of the day and it's only 12:15!

The biggest change of the past two weeks is probably breast feeding.  I think we are both finally starting to figure things out.  Ethan is doing better latching on and staying awake to feed and I'm feeling more comfortable with it as well.  It's nice to feel like things are starting to go how I thought they would.  Don't get me wrong...it is still the most difficult and frustrating thing I've ever done!  I worry he's not getting enough food, that I'm not producing enough and worry about how I'm going to fit in breast feeding and pumping when I go back to work.  Kevin once again has been amazing.  He's constantly reminding me to take it day by day and when I'm totally frustrated and overwhelmed he's there to give me a hug, reassure me and give me a break from Ethan if I need it.  Overall though I'm still feeling pretty good about how things are going.  I just have to remind myself that I went into this without expectations and need to remember that.  It's hard when I start feeling guilty for not doing the right thing or worrying about not making enough, but I continue to try and take it day by day.  Being a mom is hard, but definitely the most rewarding job.

Kevin and I also got a date night this weekend.  We went to see a movie and then grab a drink and some appetizers.  It was nice to get some time alone, but definitely weird.  It's almost like we didn't know what to talk to each other about.  The movie was great and it was nice to get out sans baby for awhile.  Next time I have to remember to bring my ID so I can have a drink with my hubby while on date night.  I guess that's what happens when the diaper bag also doubles as my purse these days.  Ethan is starting to wake up so I guess it's my cue that I'm done posting.  I'll try to get pictures up soon and write more about the things little man has learned in his first month of life!